Okay as a Deviant I haven't really done much. I tend to be a casual browser. I love looking at all this art but I have no real talent or patience to learn to draw or paint as well as some of these people. I use to like drawing but more lately I realize I'd rather write anyways. I'll never be an artist and it's unlikely that I'll ever be a writer either but at least I can write a bit in this journal and maybe give some people who are bored enough to read a sight into my life.

I'm 17 years old and I've lived in the same house in Florida all my life. When I make a friendship I am dedicated to it and I am probably one of the most helpful people you will ever meet when it comes to my friends. They are my life and I love them so much. I'm gay, that isn't who I am but it is a part of me and I'm fine with that, but some people aren't so if you are for some reason a person interested in reading the journals of someone you dont know but unwilling to read the journal of someone who happens to love those of the same sex now would be a good place to stop.

I'm unusually serious for someone my age, I've never been much into partying in the teenage sense of the word. Never gotten drunk and I've never done drugs. I do smoke when I'm stressed but even that is something I'm trying to stop. My boyfriend says he thinks its amazing that I view that as something bad that needs to quit. Joshua is the name of my boyfriend which is odd considering he and my first love share the same name. Josh was the first guy I ever loved, the guy who was my first boyfriend and the guy that made me come out of the closet. Josh and I were on and off for three years and unfortunately we dont really talk anymore but I'll never forget how much I've gone through and learned for and because of him. I'm quite happy with Joshua at the moment, he's pretty much my polar opposite but we make each other happy and for us that is enough.

If you cant tell by now my journals will mostly be made up of strange free form writing off the top of my head as it comes to me. Stream of consciousness if you will. Sometimes I might post little bits of stories I'm working on or character's I've imagined. But for now I think this has been an interesting introduction. So goodbye for now I'll write again soon, maybe when I'm more awake.